Sunday, January 18, 2009

I MADE IT!!

Ok, I made it to the ICQ chat again tonight. And found out I'm not the only one struggling with more than 1 subject (I knew I wasn't, just feels that way at times).

I'm not apologising for the previous post. I am having some problems coping - some of the reasons are actually my fault, others are because I don't want to turn my family away. I have to spend too much time away from them all as it is for work (due to be away from home for up to 21wks this yr), so when I'm home if they need me I'll do what I can.

Anyway, tonight may get some more stuff done, but tomorrow is another day and I'll be at home on my own. Hubby will be at work, & so will the rest of the family, so I shouldn't get any more "help me mummy" calls between about 7am & 4pm - plenty of time to get some of those concepts chased up and some of the other stuff completed (but how do I read the text for my other subject without falling asleep???).

RANT

Ok, I'm going to have a rant/vent/whatever you want to call it. I REALLY regret allowing myself to be talked into studying 2 subjects this study period! Yes, by rights, I should have been able to handle it, having 6wks off work, but that was without the fact that I seem to be the only one that most of my family will call on to do things. But then, I suppose, I should have looked a little deeper into those 6wks - the week before Xmas, a write-off trying to get everything sorted for Xmas; we went away for a week & I had no computer access (though I did take some readings from the other subject & TRY to get into them); about a week lost in being admitted to hospital - so that removed 3 of those 6wks. Then we'll add certain members of my family into things!

To those of you who don't have children yet - DON'T!! To those who have young children, be thankful that when you put them to bed & they go off to sleep, they'll usually stay asleep all night, & it's not all that late when they go. To those with teenagers, be thankful in some respects that they've decided that they don't want much to do with mum & dad (oh, how embarrassing!!), and that they know everything. When they become adults and move out of home & realise that you DID know what you were talking about, you suddenly become the expert again (just like when they were little, only more helpless it seems!), and you start getting the phone calls where everything is an emergency and you have to drop everything NOW and help them.

I thought my children were fairly independent. It seems that was a facade they were carefully nurturing until it seemed that mum was "otherwise occupied". My own fault, I suppose, I showed them I could do almost everything I needed to.

Anyway, in the meantime, I haven't been seen on the discussion boards because it's often been quite late at night when I've gotten in there, & I've answered a few posts. Unfortunately, they've been long answers, written off the cuff, & just before I've gone to publish them, I've decided to just check something else - and three times now I've managed to delete the whole post just before I published it. IDIOT!! Then I can't remember exactly what point I was making a comment/answer to, tiredness has suddenly smacked me in the face to the degree of not being able to type without multiple corrections and I've decided to try to do it in the morning, only to not be able to work out which posts I was looking at in the first place.

I am still here! I am still reading posts and getting information etc together. And this week, I will try to remember the ICQ hookup at 7pm AEST tonight (if it's still on). Yes, I know everyone has other bits of life to contend with, I'm not the only one with "problems", but this blog was not to only be about our thoughts and how we coped with various exercises within the course, but our thoughts and how we were coping with the course in general. I'M NOT COPING!


Disclaimer - All the comments written above have been written because I have received yet another "help me mummy" phone call, my house seems to be falling down around my ears, going back to work is looming and it feels like everything is conspiring against me. Study will recommence (unfortunately the other subject needs precedence because I REALLY don't find it as interesting as this one) as soon as I have put the world to rights again! SUPERMUM TO THE RESCUE!

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Module 2 - CHAT

OK, it is Sunday 04Jan and we've just had a chat in ICQ. I don't know how many people were there, but it showed me again why I don't particularly like that form of chatting. While I like being able to speak with a number of people at once at times, I really don't like the screen "moving" by itself. I much prefer to have some form of control over the screen - to have it stay there while I type my answer to a person, and then move on when I hit the send button.

Yes, we know....I'm a control freak. I don't like pop-ups suddenly appearing on my screen (which is why I usually have them blocked), I don't like programs suddenly asking my firewall for permission to enter or exit, and when that email was being sent around years ago telling you that microsoft would give you a free can holder for your computer, I never liked that.....(even though I didn't notice it opening my disk drive to start off with because my tower was under my desk), I don't even like unexpected noise coming from my computer so I keep the sound off all the time. And yeah, I really hate it when the techs remote into my computer and take it over while they fix something for me.

I don't use Skype - when my husband was in the US, we tried using it, but it froze both of our machines, so we didn't use it again. I use MSN & ICQ for one-on-one chat, but I keep myself in "offline" or "invisible" mode. This is because my computer is always turned on when I'm at home, but I'm not always in front of it. That way I don't have people looking for me and getting upset when I don't answer immediately. Also, if I'm busy doing something else, I can let the messages come in without feeling like I have to answer people immediately, and once again, because they don't know if I'm there unless I answer, they don't get upset if I'm not answering their every comment immediately. My friends know I do this, and they know that if I'm available and I'm not busy (schoolwork etc) then I'll answer them immediately.

I use email for a form of chatting with my daughter when I'm at work. Neither of us can access any other programs like webmail or IM sites through work, so if we need to talk we email back & forth. We don't need to phone each other then, other people aren't listening in on our conversation and if we are busy when a message comes through or aren't at our desks, we can answer it a little later. While what may have been a 5min conversation may take all day, we answer each other as we can, and by not trying to rush through a conversation we are each more likely to remember something else in particular that we needed to say.

Other than that, I use chatrooms. I've got two I generally go to, though lately I've been too busy to go to either of them. They are both html chat, but in one you can change things like your font and post any pictures, in the other you have to use their pictures unless you are a paying member, and you can't change the font. With both of the chatrooms the only way the screen changes is when you hit the "send" button. That gives you a chance to read the post, answer the way you want to, and then send the post. Then you read through the other posts that came through while you were typing. They also give you the chance of speaking privately to one or more people while also chatting with a group of people.





I've been involved in this sort of chat since 1999, and have met a number of people in real time as well as through the internet. It was through this chat method that I learnt how to download and use first ICQ, then yahoochat and then msn. This is all still in real-time (though some people don't want to know that it's 11pm on Sunday night for you, while it's 7.30am Sunday morning for them), like MSN & ICQ, just in a different format.