Sunday, January 18, 2009

RANT

Ok, I'm going to have a rant/vent/whatever you want to call it. I REALLY regret allowing myself to be talked into studying 2 subjects this study period! Yes, by rights, I should have been able to handle it, having 6wks off work, but that was without the fact that I seem to be the only one that most of my family will call on to do things. But then, I suppose, I should have looked a little deeper into those 6wks - the week before Xmas, a write-off trying to get everything sorted for Xmas; we went away for a week & I had no computer access (though I did take some readings from the other subject & TRY to get into them); about a week lost in being admitted to hospital - so that removed 3 of those 6wks. Then we'll add certain members of my family into things!

To those of you who don't have children yet - DON'T!! To those who have young children, be thankful that when you put them to bed & they go off to sleep, they'll usually stay asleep all night, & it's not all that late when they go. To those with teenagers, be thankful in some respects that they've decided that they don't want much to do with mum & dad (oh, how embarrassing!!), and that they know everything. When they become adults and move out of home & realise that you DID know what you were talking about, you suddenly become the expert again (just like when they were little, only more helpless it seems!), and you start getting the phone calls where everything is an emergency and you have to drop everything NOW and help them.

I thought my children were fairly independent. It seems that was a facade they were carefully nurturing until it seemed that mum was "otherwise occupied". My own fault, I suppose, I showed them I could do almost everything I needed to.

Anyway, in the meantime, I haven't been seen on the discussion boards because it's often been quite late at night when I've gotten in there, & I've answered a few posts. Unfortunately, they've been long answers, written off the cuff, & just before I've gone to publish them, I've decided to just check something else - and three times now I've managed to delete the whole post just before I published it. IDIOT!! Then I can't remember exactly what point I was making a comment/answer to, tiredness has suddenly smacked me in the face to the degree of not being able to type without multiple corrections and I've decided to try to do it in the morning, only to not be able to work out which posts I was looking at in the first place.

I am still here! I am still reading posts and getting information etc together. And this week, I will try to remember the ICQ hookup at 7pm AEST tonight (if it's still on). Yes, I know everyone has other bits of life to contend with, I'm not the only one with "problems", but this blog was not to only be about our thoughts and how we coped with various exercises within the course, but our thoughts and how we were coping with the course in general. I'M NOT COPING!


Disclaimer - All the comments written above have been written because I have received yet another "help me mummy" phone call, my house seems to be falling down around my ears, going back to work is looming and it feels like everything is conspiring against me. Study will recommence (unfortunately the other subject needs precedence because I REALLY don't find it as interesting as this one) as soon as I have put the world to rights again! SUPERMUM TO THE RESCUE!

4 comments:

Jim Cameron said...

I'm not doing two subjects, but I can relate to everything else you've said. The late nights, the tiredness. Our oldest are now 20 and 18, so we're just moving through, or passed, the teenager phase of "I know everything" and where they don't want anything to do with you (except when they DO want you to help them). Our youngest is 13 - crap, we've got to go through it all again!

I'm sure we value our achievements more, and learn more life lessons, when done facing adversity.

Hang in there, the Uni work has got to be easier than raising children! I know you can do it.

Janine said...

I too am doing two subjects and now I wish I wasn't but there you go. They seem to consume time for little result. Thankfully no children here so that is one less thing to contend with. Good luck and great post. I know I have been there.

Judi Z said...

Thank you, both of you. Well, Supermum (& Super-stepdad) went to the rescue again. After much running around and (it'll only take an hour or so mum) using up the entire afternoon, we got them sorted out.

Got home & time to cook dinner. Because of having surgery a couple of weeks ago, I'm still on liquids only, so two different meals to make (first time I've cooked since I was in hospital, so that's not too bad). Next thing I know, it's time for the ICQ hookup, so I sat in front of the computer eating my dinner and participating.

I've been into the discussion boards & left some notes there (I didn't manage to delete these ones), and now put another entry in my blog. I've had it!

Tomorrow is another day, and with no-one around (might take the phone off the hook, but then, daughter just emails anyway.....and sms's.....and gets her brother to chase me up.....etc) I should be able to get into getting some stuff done.

Next study period I will NOT take on more than 1 subject!

Peter Fletcher said...

Keep it up Judi. Your honesty is wonderful. Email me if you need any help.